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Every Feeling On A Loop

by Josiah Johnson

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Ronald Lindeboom
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Ronald Lindeboom What an incredible album. It is an oasis in these dark times. Truly. I ran into this album tonight and it was just what the doctor ordered. Thank you, Josiah. "It only takes one fierce love to raise you up from the ground." True, Josiah. I am living proof of it. Favorite track: False Alarms.
avivinocur2
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avivinocur2 Stellar album, timeless songwriting Favorite track: Nobody Knows.
Heather Galloway
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Heather Galloway “We are built upon generations of Love” has become my mantra to keep going. This album offers a sanctuary to meditate and grow in, safety from the occasional storm. The whole album feels personal but also it feels like it’s everyone else’s story too. I feel lighter after listening which is priceless. Not many song writers give me the same sense of calm whilst still tapping my toe and smiling inside. 💜
Joshua Rodriguez
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Joshua Rodriguez What a great record. Spent a long time waiting for it and listening to the singles I could find on YouTube before it was released. Still in regular rotation for me during my work commute. Been a fan of Josiah's songwriting for probably 10 years now. Looking forward to the next record. Favorite track: I Wish I Had.
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1.
False Alarms 06:17
Do you remember when we first met We were taking turns singing songs about grandmothers I believed in the beauty of the unexpected connection And drew in all of the good that I had been expecting Do the work to keep yourself open to other people’s magic You devoured me whole like a ravenous animal Every single thing you said was the best I’d ever heard Couldn’t keep a job, you were dreaming yourself down and out, but It only takes one fierce love to raise you up from the ground But I stopped callin’ my momma, I tried to adopt yours Tried to forget where I came from, and the hurt that I had caused Thank god for the seers, who can perceive where we are heading With patience for the long road we’ve been walking on It takes a real big heart to hold that line Don’t think, don’t be alarmed This was always gonna break your hard heart We had so many false starts We set so many false alarms But there is a new vibration on my tongue tonight I see it getting older, I feel it coming right You walk out the door into the street, I see you lookin around for me We are made of possibility, (we are firing like pottery) Don’t think, don’t be alarmed This was always gonna break your hard heart We had so many false starts We set so many false alarms Don’t let your mind get stuck in that game In the times when it goes the wrong way We will get hurt and we will make mistakes There will not always be the right words to say, but You are built upon generations of love When you forget where you are going, know that that’s what you are made of We are built upon generations of love It is the pleasure that I want for you, and you will know the depths of our love With every single day I show up, a song of worship on my tongue Don’t think, don’t be alarmed This was always gonna break your hard heart We had so many false starts We set so many false alarms Don’t think, don’t be alarmed This was always gonna break your hard heart We had so many false starts We set so many false alarms
2.
I can’t come around anymore baby Not when you made up your fate like that I’m still in love with you honey I hope you can learn to pick up the slack I’m a woman in a man’s life I’m a woman trying to make you right (beep beep) We’re talking at each other We never see eye to eye You say you wanna be my lover, but I never see you try (to see my side) I’m a woman in a man’s life I’m a woman trying to make you right And you’re not my vocation, you’re not my life I’m a woman in a man’s life (beep beep) It breaks my heart how long I wait, It breaks my heart how long I wait, It breaks my heart how long, for you to open your eyes I’m a woman in a man’s life I’m a woman (beep beep)
3.
Nobody Knows 03:52
I always thought I’d be a potted plant I’d grow the beauty even with my dirty hands Always thought I’d be a well-kept man And you would take me out to dancing again I always thought I’d be a wilderness I could be a savior in a white linen dress I could learn to clean up every time I made a mess And you would take me out to dancing again If nobody knows the trouble you’re in If nobody knows the trouble you’ve seen If nobody knows the trouble you’re in Stop hiding When you were poor, I smoked your cigarettes You went unfed, I ate your last baguette When you were rich, I would sleep at the foot of your bed Til you would take me out to dancing again If nobody knows the trouble you’re in If nobody knows the trouble you’ve seen If nobody knows the trouble you’re in You can tell me We cannot save each other And I don’t wanna say that I need your love dear But when we’re lost and tired from the cold and the road and the fight I hope you’ll take me out to dancing again
4.
I Wish I Had 04:45
I wish I had been ready for you We could have done all those things that lovers do But I wouldn’t let you in, you had to wait in the dark All of those years wondering when it would start So new, having something to save But the shade grows large in the face of the wave I stick my head in the sand, I hope it all goes away Like I always have I wish I had been ready for you I love your heart and your shaking body too But I wouldn’t let you in, you had to wait in the dark All of those years wondering when it would start So I’m getting used to dropping my pride I lay it all out for you, I put it all on the line I take the right way now, instead of the wrong way out For the first time Nothing was a mistake, you’ll learn to love along the way You’ll bend or you will break, either way a life is made But you cannot fall through the cracks, we’ll be there to bring you back Hold you ‘til the dark is through, in the way old lovers do (ooooooohhhhh)
5.
Rise Up 07:03
You are worried that the sun will not rise in the morning again And you are worried that the roads are not open for you to come home But we will rise up, don’t even think about it, all the world is here You are a darlin’, you are a light, you are the ground your feet are near You are feelin’ underwater, outside a shape, formlessly circulating Don’t hold back, really fall apart, and find the shape of the thing that you are ‘Cause we will rise up, don’t even think about it, all the world is here You are a darlin’, you are a light, you are the ground your feet are near Take a breath, don’t even think about it, just breathe (breathe!) You are worried that the sun will not rise in the morning again And you are worried that the roads are not open for you to come home But we will rise up, don’t even think about it, all the world is here You are a darlin’, you are a light, you are the ground your feet are near (ooohhhhhhhhhhh)
6.
You must dive to the depths of the ocean I must float on top of the sea I would never hold it against you I know you always loved me Sailing there, sailing here Straight on out, banish fear I might lose you to the blue But that’s my truth and that’s your truth You must dive to the depths of the ocean I must float on top of the sea I would never hold it against you I know you always loved me I had a choice To stay inside or use my voice Oh my love, your heart is black and blue And I did that to you We’re searching for some way to work it out So we writhe about, twist and shout You were the weight of everything I was the change tomorrow brings You prayed for everything to stay But I came to wash it away And I was ashamed (don’t be ashamed!) I had a choice To stay inside or use my voice We are the weight of everything We are the change tomorrow brings We pray for all of it to stay But we’re here to wash it away (don’t be afraid!) I had a choice To stay inside or use my voice
7.
I’m waiting, waiting on you I’m waiting on a ghost train runnin’ through It’s funny how I could find somebody new But I’m waiting on you Get out, get out, there’s much to see Get out from your sickness and breathe Don’t go there, come home to me And if you have to go to hell alone Remember, you don’t have to be alone Take me with you
8.
Hey Kid 06:20
Hey kid, you were doing alright Except when you bought what you were sold Hey kid, come back to the light Don’t leave yourself out in the cold I had to learn to change my tune Learn new language to talk through The difference between me and you The ground we’ve covered, the hells we’ve held, and what we’ve seen to be true All the noise keeping me up in the night Everyone arguing about who is wrong and who is right I’d like to find the ones with love in their eyes Heavy with the weight of being wrong and right at the same time The best times are late at night lying here with you We can do what we wanna do No more arguing about winning or losing All my love devoted to me and to you I had to learn to change my tune Learn new languages to talk through The difference between me and you The ground we’ve covered, the hells we’ve held, and what we’ve seen to be true Every feeling on a loop That’s the cord between me and you
9.
It’s 20 years later You think I’d be wiser But I’m still fuckin’ around With the same old bad liar Still holdin’ on, still holdin’ on To the same old brick I’m a fool for the damn thing Over and over Got me running around when I Could have been coming home to you Used to be you were to be my wife Now I got you fearin’ for my life It’s a good sign that we’re talkin’ at all It’s a good time, c’mon! Give me a call! Let’s have a good fight, put my back to the wall ‘Cause on a good night, I don’t miss you at all If you’re startin’ to question the Depth of the feelin’ Turn it around and then Maybe you’ll see oh How deep the hole, how deep the hole That could turn me from you Still holdin’ on, still holdin’ on To the same old brick
10.
Grandma 00:34
11.
There was anger in my heart But I come to you with my love And open arms, for myself and for everyone I had gotten it all wrong I was buried in my own shit Thought the order was too tall to climb to life back out of it But the world’s not gonna end If you do not get your way again, my friend The greatest task for the modern woman like me Is to find what is within herself It’s just so loud everywhere else And to love what is within herself And if you’re called upon to love But you find you are too small I know you’re more than capable It hurts, but you can grow large enough to allow it all The world’s not gonna end If you do not get your way again It hurts, but you can grow large enough to allow it all The world’s not gonna end If you do not get your way again, my friend
12.
I was never gonna solve all your problems I was never gonna make the void easier to bear Jon, you’re just like me We don’t take easy on ourselves, do we? I was never gonna solve all your problems And neither will the next one You gotta climb out of that black hole You gotta do it every day on your own (I can help you though) Jon, you’re just like me Don’t you think it’s time to take it easy And I’ll be waitin’, I’ll be waitin’, I’ll be waitin’ For you to come and join me

credits

released September 4, 2020

ALBUM PERSONNEL
Faustine Hudson - drums & shaker (1), Kaylee Cole - vocals (1, 9, 10)
David Lizmi - electric bass (1, 3-6, 8, 10), upright bass (2)
Dan Brantigan - trumpet (1-6, 8, 10), Jen Borst-Dagdagan - vocals (1, 10)
Matt Goff - percussion (1, 3, 4, 8, 10), Emily Hope Price - cello (1-6, 8, 10)
Aynsley Powell - drums (2-6, 8, 10), percussion (2, 5)
Peter Lalish - electric guitar (2-6, 8, 10), theremin (10)
Renata Zeiguer - violin (2), Carleigh Aikins - vocals (2, 4, 5)
Lindsay Giles - vocals (2, 4, 5), Joy Pearson - vocals (3, 10)
Olivier Manchon - violin & viola (3-6, 8, 10), saw (5),
Rebecca Marie Miller - vocals (3, 10), Michael Porter - trombone (5, 7, 11),
Chelsea Coleman - vocals (5, 6), Aviva le Fey - vocals (5, 6)
Matt Gervais - drums, percussion, synth, keys & electric guitar (9),
engineering (9, 11), Mikey Gervais - bass & group vocals (9)
Elizabeth Johnson - sweet loving wisdom (9*)
Josiah Johnson - vocals (1-11), acoustic guitar (1-6, 8-11), piano (2, 8, 9),
percussion (2), synth/weird noise programming (7),
engineering (7, 9*), rhodes/aux keys (8)

Produced by Josiah Johnson, Peter Lalish, Matt Gervais

All songs produced by Josiah Johnson
Co-produced with Peter Lalish - False Alarms,
Woman in a Man’s Life, Nobody Knows, I Wish I Had,
Rise Up, I Had a Choice, Hey Kid, World’s Not Gonna End
Co-produced with Matt Gervais - Same Old Brick, Solve Problems
Additional production by Scott McDowell - False Alarms,
Woman in a Man’s Life, Hey Kid

Recorded by D. James Goodwin at The Isokon in Woodstock, NY, except:
(1) recorded by Peter Lalish at Jupiter Recordings in Brooklyn, NY
(2) recorded by Quinn McCarthy at The Creamery in Brooklyn, NY
(9, 11) recorded by Matt Gervais at Sound Etc. in Seattle, WA
(7) recorded by Josiah Johnson at home in Half Moon Bay, CA

Additional engineering by
Scott McDowell at Hyde Street Studio C in San Francisco, CA (1-6, 8, 10)
Peter Lalish at Jupiter Recordings in Brooklyn, NY (1, 10)
Aaron Goldstein at Baldwin Street Sound in Toronto, ON, Canada (2, 4, 5)
Floyd Reitsma at Studio Litho in Seattle, WA (1, 5, 7, 11)
Cole Halvorson at Flora Recording and Playback in Portland, OR (3, 10)
Shawn Simmons at Shabbey Road in Seattle, WA (1, 10)
Josiah on a voice memo in Bonsall, CA (9*)

Mixed & Mastered by D. James Goodwin at The Isokon in Woodstock, NY

All songs administered by WB Music (ASCAP)
Management - Rachel Flotard, Red Light Management
Agent - Ali Hedrick. Legal - Ed Pierson, Attorney At Law

Photos by Abbey Simmons, James Joiner,
Faustine Hudson, Veronica Spann, and Brett Walker
Cover art by Jake Johnson. Layout, design, & watercolor by Matt Goff

THANK YOU ENDLESSLY TO:

Mom, Dad, Jake (& Steph), and Joanna. Proud of us.
THATH Family: Jon, Kenny, Charity, Tyler, and Chris for our years of love and turmoil and music and healing growth, Matty & Mikey Gervais, the Rock Mamas, Jordan Kurland, and Matt Shay.

Carleigh Aikins to infinity, the Aikins clan, Chayim Newman, The Orchard, Dayna Stierley,
Heather Powell Browne, Kendall & Jacci Rock, Brad Duncan & Franny, Kathleen Tarrant,
Kaylee Cole, Lindsay McCarthy, Luke Messimer, Matt Hopper, Kerry & the Faherty’s
(band name?), the sweetest Kyle McClure, and James & Angie & Bella Joiner.

Scott McDowell, Dani Scoville, Ben Fee & Scandinavia,
Chippie Kislik, Navid & Jen & Planes on Paper,
Patti Andrews, SFAF & The Stonewall Project,
The Red Poppy, Kim Kylland, Zena Allen forever.

Gadi Garfinkel, Gemma Rose Cohen, Nick & Britt, Chelsea Coleman, Otis & Shabbat Steve,
Aviva Lipkowitz, Brady Gill, Sile Bao, Lisa Pezzino & Run with the Moon, Bean Nights,
Heather Galloway, Rory Cloud, Allyson Makuch, Ned & You’re Going 2 Die,
Morgan Bolender, Scott Ferreter, The Feelings Parade, and Rosie Raizen.

Doe Bay home base, Kevin Sur, Joe & Maureen Brotherton, Faustine Hudson, Erin Austin, Daniel Blue, Reba & Joy, Diarmuid & Alana & Conor Byrne, Corey Fox, Travis Albright, and Shawn Simmons.

Peter Lalish, Lindsay Giles, EHP, David Lizmi, Dan Brantigan, Aynsley Powell, D James Goodwin for all your help creating and midwifing this baby.

Ali Hedrick, Ed Pierson, Andy Kaulkin, and Rachel Flotard for dreaming big into the future with me.

Sophie Speer & Liz Allen. Dream team.

Grandma Elizabeth.

Charlotte Nixon.

A new way of living toward which we are moving.
Making peace with life, the stillness, listening, receiving, boldly walking in balance,
learning to live with integrity and solidity, building up instead of tearing down,
prayer; the non-linear, courageous, humble, and trusting way.

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Josiah Johnson Oakland, California

Josiah Johnson, co-founding member of the Billboard chart-topping band The Head and the Heart, has begun a new musical journey in 2020. And he does so with new collaborative tools and creative blueprints in tow, buoyed by a single idea: no matter what happens, the world will still turn and you’re still here. ... more

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